Saturday, February 12, 2011

Wigging out

Well, I done and got myself a piece.
I can't believe it, but this is the one I chose. My friend Aimee, who is also my hair stylist and better yet, my friend, came with me. Thank God for Aimee, because with out her I would have totally lost it.
We walked into this total time warp. This shop was vintage 1970's. They do hair on one side and wigs on the other. They were very helpful and although I started to cry after being there about 5 minutes, I quickly recovered and we got to work.
I HATE that I had to order a wig yesterday. I hate that I'm going to go bald. I hate pretty much everything about this. But I'm thankful for God's goodness in the midst of it. I'm thankful for help from friends and the generosity of strangers. This road sucks, but I'm going to try and do it one little step at a time. And this step was getting a wig in case I ever want to look *normal.*
If I didn't want to look normal, this is the one I would have gotten. Oh my. I looked like I should be in some kind of space alien movie.
I played a cruel joke on Steve and told him this was the one I chose. You should have seen him stammer and try and find something nice to say about it. I didn't let him suffer too long and I think he might have been a touch mad at me.
Last night, Steve and Olivia went to the father/daughter Valentine's Dance at her school. She was positively bonkers all day about it.

To say the both of them had fun would be an understatement. They both enjoyed the night. One thing Steve mentioned was how assertive O was with her friends. Not bossy, but just not afraid to enter into the mix.

Which is different from last year. Our daughter who was riddled with fear is now in the mix. And thriving.

It is so fun to see her grow and mature. These are her sweet friends.
And these are the pictures that make this whole cancer thing so hard. I love looking at the pics but almost can't at the same time. I hate what I'm about to miss out on. But trust that because of this chemo I will be around to enjoy many more years and events to come. It wasn't until yesterday that it dawned on me, I should be thankful for chemo. As scary as it is, it is a good thing. Hopefully it is the thing that God is going to use to cure this cancer. Please pray that I would continue to see the positives and be thankful when I can!

22 comments:

jenny said...

No lie, you look BEAUTIFUL! I know it is horrible to have to purchase a wig, and be walking the road you are on, but you are so beautiful inside and out! Honestly, as far as wigs go, I think you made a great choice. When I pulled up this post, I thought, wow she got her hair cut shorter, I love it! And then went on to read it was your new wig. Pics of O's dance are just precious! Looks like they had a blast! Love you, friend!

Cortney @ evanhaslanded.com said...

Oh E - You are beautiful no matter which wig you have on! I think the blond is hawt ;-)!

vwiller said...

I love it! And it reminds me that I am almost due to get mine cut and donated again, for the third time. Though this time they don't get the post pregnancy extra hair, oh well! The wig is great, though I think you will beautiful as a bald woman too!!

jenny from mommin' it up said...

I think the wig was a great choice. You crack me up in the pic w/ the alien wig! And the joke on Steve...I had a good laugh at his expense. Hee hee. I adore O's outfit. She is such a cutie.
Still praying my heart out for you! I am very thankful for this powerful treatment you are going to get. Can't wait to see what God will do through you and through all of this.

Andrea @ Savings Lifestyle said...

I've been away for a while but just checking in to let you know you're still in my prayers!! And...

You have the perfect face shape for one of those pixie cuts and the summer will be perfect for it. You know what Winona Ryder had when she shoplifted? Yeah, so just don't steal anything while you're out and all and you will look fab :)

One chance at this life said...

I love the wig on you........very pretty!!! Thanks again for openly sharing your journey right now........you have encouraged and challenged me in so many ways. (even though i know you don't even know who i am)

Heather Ruetschle said...

You look great! I really like the wig and it looks natural and great on you! That shop looks like a trip though....

Rachel said...

Sweet Olivia...glad you shared her with us so that the prayers can pour over her. Annelise and I will really hold that close in prayer. Love you, Elizabeth. And the wig too! Thanks for walking with Jesus down this road. it is a beautiful and glorious thing to behold!

Jennifer said...

Wow! Is all I can say. It looks great!! :)

Marisa said...

Love the wig! So glad you were able to have a girls day with O the other day. Her outfit is adorable.

Keeping your family in my prayers!

Kris said...

Elizabeth... agree with all the posts... the wig looks GREAT on you. Let's think about this... you made it thru surgery,strep throat and the intestinal flu all at the same...chemo should be a piece of cake...
Blessings to you all...

Momma of The B.M.C. Report said...

Not gonna lie I kinda like the blonde wig! ;) The pictures of O made me smile! When did all our kids get so big? Thankful for you, E. Continuing to pray for your mind! Love you friend!

Lisa said...

E, you look gorgeous! That wig you picked out does suit you really well and you're looking beautiful my friend. With that wig, you look a LOT like Amanda Peet, one of my favorite actresses. You go, girl! So adorable that O's school has a father/daughter dance! Those pics and her smile are precious! Love you! Let's try another phone call soon.

Jeni said...

I think the first wig looks great on you!! So pretty. Praying for you.

Heather Ruetschle said...

I just had to come back and tell you that your first sentence "Well I done and got myself a piece" has had me laughing since I read it.

Susan said...

LOVE the one you chose! You are amazing E. Your strength & trust in the Lord is so evident every time I read a post from you. Sure it sucks & you're not happy about this road but how thankful I know you are to have a Savior who is holding you ever so closely in His tight grip thru this whole thing-the good, the bad & the ugly, that blond wig! :)

Rose said...

I love the blonde one! Hee-hee! You could have added some pink bows and ohhh laaa laaa! Cutie Cutie! Glad that Olivia had a blast with her daddy. I am also glad she feels comfortable drawing and telling you stories, I am sure it gets out a lot of her emotions, which probably roll like a roller coaster. Take care! Yea for the nanny saying yes!!!

H in Berlin said...

I just spent time in prayer for you for the requests in your post(s). Today also especially for O. and her faith and security in Christ, for her to be able to find words to express the emotional roller coaster and for wisdom for you and Steve to walk through it with her.

You spoke about learning to trust that God - and our life in His- is good in all circumstances and not just wishing bad times away. God has also been hammering this lesson into me repeatedly in the past 6 months. I read this quote today and thought it might encourage you as you work now daily at this new, unexpected, painful "job."

"This job has been given to me to do. Therefore, it is a gift. Therefore, it is a privilege. Therefore, it is an offering I may make to God. Therefore, it is to be done gladly, if it is done for Him. Here, not somewhere else, I may learn God’s way. In this job, not in some other, God looks for faithfulness."
— Elisabeth Elliot

Cookie said...

You are beautiful.......wig or no wig.we love you...stay positive and as upbeat as always.

Vickie---NPC said...

Elizabeth-
I have gotten so used to my wig, that I kind of hate to see what my real hair will really look like! They've made them so realistic, even people who know me will ask if it's my real hair yet! Yours looks great!
Here's a link that came through my Emmaus friends in Maryland.....good housecleaning help while you're going through treatment....one less thing to worry about.....1 a month for free for 4 months!

If you know any woman currently undergoing chemotherapy, please pass the word to her that there is a cleaning service that provides FREE housecleaning. Check it out at; http://www.cleaningforareason.org/

I see there are some in Dayton area...just need to sign up early.

Get your ginger cookies to take to chemo with you, and pre-med yourself immediately with the anti-nausea meds. I set up a schedule for 3 days following tx and didn't get sick.....don't know if that's why, but I'll take it!
Continue to pray you will continue to heal well and come through your treatment easily. I know the first one is 'scarey' 'cause you've heard all the stories and don't know what to expect. I just took my meds and laid low.....just in case.
Prayers that you'll be like me and have a 'good' run. Remember...you are in His hands and He's going through it with you :)

Elona said...

Hi There. This is my first time writing on your blog. I noticed the picture before I read what you wrote and I honestly thought you were showing your new haircut. Either way you look amazing, just like your personality.

Jess said...

HI, I read your story on another blog that I read and she had a link to visit your blog. Just wanted to let you know that my family is praying for yours. I pray that you will continue to see the positive in everything and I am so far amazed at how positive you are! :-) If you don't mind, I would like to share your story on my blog as well. The power of prayer is amazing and I think raising more awareness of ovarian cancer is a good idea! It's something I am always concerned about as well because I have PCOS. If you aren't comfortable with me sharing anything I completely understand. Just let me know and we will continue to pray! God Bless!