Thursday, February 17, 2011

One step closer

If you had mentioned Port to me a month ago, I would have figured you were talking about some kind of fancy dessert wine. And, YUM, I might add.

Today, I got a double port. Not so YUM, I might add. But to tell you the truth, this is one of the first days I'm feeling positive. (Maybe the Zoloft is kicking in. Maybe it's because the Cable Guy came to get us hooked up. Maybe it's the Percocet they have me on. Maybe it's the Lord. Who really can tell.)

Don't get me wrong, there is a pain in my side (where the abdomen port is) that hurts worse than when they filleted me open. (Maybe it was the morphine that time.) But all in all I feel like, Okay... one step closer to getting rid of this thing once and for all. Chemo starts bright and early Monday morning. And then again Tuesday morning. And then again the following Monday. And then a break and then start again. So, I may change my merry little tune.

But shoot, I'll take a merry little tune for today. The weather here was amazing (granted, I didn't really enjoy it since I slept the day away. But my kids did and that made me happy.) Isn't it funny how weather can affect so much? Maybe it shouldn't be that way... but it is.

I'm also humbled by God's provision for us. Several of my friends, and even several friends of friends, held a "Bloggy Fundraiser" yesterday. They each did a post about me and my story. They asked their readers to consider giving $5 to help cover the cost of expenses. They called the event *GimmEfive*. Cute, right? What's cuter? The $2,000 that was raised in 24 hours! Amazing! Check it out at the CaringforE website. This whole thing is one big fat humbling experience.

So, thank you if you have contributed. Thank you if you have cooked a meal. Thank you if you have sent a gift card. Thank you if you have cleaned my house. Thank you if you have sent a box of treats for me in the mail. Thank you if you dropped a card in the mail. Thank you if you have left a comment. Thank you if you have prayed for me. Thank you for understanding if a thank you note doesn't get to you in a timely manner (shoot, or at all!) Thank you seems so little and limited. But I am humbled and grateful. Thank you.


Heather Ruetschle said...

Hi E,
Glad they got the ports in successfully. Sorry about the pain. Hoping it will get better.
Wow, that was awesome of your friends to raise $2,000 in 24 hours! Whoa.
Hey - you are One Step Closer, sister!! Praying for you!!! Heather

Savvy Little Women - Kate said...

Glad you have 1 step out of the way, hoping the pain starts to fade. Praying for you, girl!

jenny from mommin' it up said...

Glad you are on some good pain meds. Stay on top of it! The bloggy fundraiser was FUN and several hundred more $$ came in today. What a privilege to share YOU with others. And the weather makes a huge difference to me, too. Really lifts my spirits!

Jess said...

Just wanted to let you know I posted your story! I am new to the blogosphere but I have lots of praying readers! We are following and praying along with you!

Gale said...

Hi E,
Alli and I have lifted you up hourly in the last few days. I remember when they told me I had stage 4 Melonoma cancer 10 YEARS AGO almost to the day. I just prayed for God to let me get Alli out of high school. Then we (you and I) got her out of college. Then I got the breast cancer and I said okay God, just let me live to see grandkids. I feel your sorrow and anger and fear. Doctors DO NOT know everything but God does.Praying for you everday and know we love you. Gale said...

Hi E,
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. I remember driving to my first chemo and being scared and wondering what it would feel like.
Getting the first one behind you is huge.
I'm in Tennessee for the week but I'd love to see you when I get back.
Much love,

kristen said...

Keep up the positive attitude - it works wonders! Oh, and from a fellow cancer patient, I can attest to Percocet being good...very very good. So is Darvocet...oh, and Vicodin...hahaha.

JRT said...

E, Catching up on you a bit here, after a few days. When you talk about getting those ports in, all I can think of is how you'd never get your immunizations. Ha. I cannot imagine today (Wed night post Chemo) & how you are feeling. Praying for you as I head to bed.