I got up this morning feeling pretty refreshed. I had a pretty good first night home. After having some breakfast, Steve the boys and I went to the mall where I was able to spend about 1/2 hour walking. It was slow going. But it felt good. I didn't really have any *goals* per say, but just wanted to walk and get things moving. Plus it helped the boys burn off some energy to play in the play are and it gave Steve's mom a break as she ran out and got some groceries and such. Steve's mom has been a saint and a huge help this past week. I'm not sure what we would do right now without her.
I've once again been up and down on the emotional roller coaster. Most of the day was pretty good. And then when it starts to approach evening time I begin to get the blues. I battle lies. Lies about God's character and the hope of my future. I asked Steve to pray with me. We did battle in the heavenlies. And I calmed down a bit. So if you think of me around dinner times, please pray that I would take thoughts captive and trust in Jesus. I can really invent a story and run with it. So, instead, I'm trying to focus on God and what He's already done for me thus far. But I'll tell you what, friends, this is hard stuff.
My friend, Susie, made a new website to help me out. There have been so many people (maybe even you reading this) from near and far who have offered to help. We've got meals covered through the middle of February, which is so nice. But this thing is going to go on for months. So, Susie set up a *blog* of sorts that people can go to and check in and see what kind of help we need and they can sign up to be on a call list of sorts.
Here is the link. If nothing else, it's a really cool thing (definitely cooler than this blog) and I'm blessed to have a talented and caring friend in Susie.
So far, the kids seem to be glad to have me back. Steve is working like a dog around here to keep things together and Steve's mom is exhausted. All in all, I guess you could say things are chugging along. I have to remind myself that my body won't always hurt like this. Each day I see improvement. It's just hard to imagine that right now. Pray that I'll be able to focus on each day as it comes. Please don't stop praying. Please don't stop asking others to pray. There is certainly something in this thing for me on prayer! I'm listening and learning. I hope you are too.
And as I walked through the mall today, I continued to ask Jesus to not stop showing off. He really is amazing!