Real quick (because American Idol is on) I wanted to let you know I got home about 1:30 this afternoon. The ride was bumpy and a bit uncomfortable. It's good to be home. It's good to see my kids. I'm glad to get out of the hospital.
It's scary to be home. It's scary to see my kids and it's scary to be out of the hospital.
Ironic, huh? I know that each day, my body will be feeling better. It is hard to see the light at the end of that tunnel. I am thankful that I had that hernia surgery a few months ago, because I know the reality is, I WILL feel better. Although, probably just in time to feel like hell from chemo.
Seriously, am I about to have chemo? Pray for my mind. I'm struggling some. I'm still trusting God. Still believing that HE is in control. But reality is rushing in like a speeding freight train. Blah.
I have an appointment with Dr. Reid a week from tomorrow, Feb. 3rd. I find out what the schedule is and what my life looks like for the next 4 months. Maybe that will be good. Its the unknown that is so scary. Maybe filling in some blanks will help.
Enough about that. What I need is to concentrate on tomorrow. Getting up, walking, resting, eating and enjoying my kids and spending time with God. I think I can do THAT. One day at a time is so cheesy. But so real to me right now.
How did my blog turn from funny mom blog to heavy cancer blog? Hopefully you won't leave me for funnier pastures. 'Cuz guess what? I need you. I also need some bad singin', so I'll see you tomorrow.