Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Almost outta here

This should be my last night in the hospital. My Dr. was going to send me home tonight, but call me crazy, I asked for one more night. I was suppose to have my morphine drip stopped last night and begin on my oral pain meds, but nurse messed up (I've had some interesting stories to say the least) and she didn't stop the morphine, nor did she begin the new stuff. So my Dr. came in this morning and was surprised to find I had not yet begun my new regimen. He said we could see how it goes and if I felt comfortable going home, I could. Umm.. no thanks. Let's give it a bit more time to make sure it all comes together.

My friend Sally is coming to spend the night with me tonight.

Last night with Susie was a huge success. Despite the fact that Michelle got a rose. Brad MUST be wanting a crazy wife. And if he's in the market for crazy, he is in the right place!

My sweet friend and hair stylist, Aimee, came this morning to hang out and do my hair and nails. Isn't that the sweetest thing? After my shower she was here waiting and I didn't have to dry my own hair. We strolled the halls, chatted about the roller coaster of life and then she did my nails. I felt pretty pampered. Because I no longer have to pull my IV cart around, I can wear regular PJ's and stroll the halls a lot easier. I spent lots of time walking in circles. I honestly feel at my best when I'm walking. I worry about being at home because there is no where to walk. It's January in Ohio. It's cold and snowy. I cant just head out the front door and walk around the block. I need to find a place to walk. There are lots of obvious solutions, but I can't drive as long as I'm on my meds. Pray for me to figure out a solution.

Fear today has come in just a few waves. I can feel the prayers, though. I've found if I tell someone of my fear and we pray they go away pretty quick. They come again, but I just repeat the above. Maybe I should always be doing that and not just in crisis mode, huh? Or else, maybe life is crisis mode!

I'm excited to see my kids tomorrow. Excited and nervous. Pray they will be gentle. And not demanding. Pray that we'll just enjoy each other. That we'll figure out what this new normal looks like. Pray that I continue to recognize Jesus is all of this. And that I still ask for help.

Oh, and it looks like I'm back in for another season of American Idol. Obviously, I was a bit distracted last week, so I have yet to really formulate any opinions on the new judges. Should be an interesting ride. Since you can't have relational train wrecks every night of the week, a good filler seems to be talent train wrecks.

You have a good night and I'll see you from my brown couch tomorrow!

15 comments:

maureen said...

maybe you can get a gym membership covered? if it makes you feel better- ask your doc and maybe he/she could write a script and you could get it covered w/ insurance... a gym w/ childcare to boot! ;) love you e and i'm praying for you every day.

jenny from mommin' it up said...

I LOVE that you got pampered today! I think you made a smart move staying the extra night. I'll be praying for the walking thing and of COURSE that you won't stop asking for help! Praying Jesus will give you a sweet, gentle reunion with the kids.

Sadee said...

Praying for you and Sally to have a great "slumber party" tonight! Hope that gas she passes in her sleep doesn't keep you awake....

tiffnay said...

So glad that you were pampered today, what an awesome friend!!! And very glad to hear that you are going home soon!!! Thinking and praying for you!!!!

Karen said...

good decision to stay. And let friends come be with you A LOT as you transition back home. They'll help with the kids, I know! Just accept a lot of help as you rest and heal.

Jeni said...

Praying for you today and hoping all goes well when you return home.

vwiller said...

Just take care of yourself when you get home! Can I send you a bell?!

Anonymous said...

Praying E! Praying that recovery is easy, chemo is the shortest amount possible and most effective possible, for complete healing, and that God will use all of this for good in ways you can't even imagine. Oh, and after seeing your kids' ages on your facebook profile I was surprised to realize how similar your home must feel to mine (my triplets are almost 4). Crazy life! Love, Mary Rynsburger

rose said...

Praying for you! You also have 7 more prayer warriors from my small group! We are reading "Captivating" by J. & S. Eldredge. If you haven't read it, I think you would love it, all about the heart of a woman and how God made us to be just who we are, not super women. So...Miss E, remember you have all these women around you praying for you and holding you up, you are never alone. I am also praying for your days home with three young children and I just know your Dayton friends will surround you with help in that department. Take care and send some snow north to Toledo!

Meg said...

Hey girl. Just made reservations at the White Swan! For 14 days! OH my. so cool that your friends there are loving on you. I'm thankful. We are getting Emma on Valentines Day!! Just checking in!

toubys said...

prayed specifically for "gentle kiddos" at home and for a "walking strategy" ... will you want Simon back?

Tree said...

i am praying for you, girl! i love that i am laughing and crying on your blog all at once! don't tell anyone else, but my guilty pleasure is the bachelor too. if anyone asks, i won't admit it;) i will keep praying...for a smooth transition home, for kids who enjoy one another, for peace in your soul and for God to protect your mind from lies and fear. big hugs from tucson!!!

Gwen Smith said...

Hey Elizabeth!

Brad and I just got an email from Steve and have joined the legions of warriors who are praying on your behalf. HATE that you are going through this. HATE cancer. HATE the enemy who started all this yucky fallen-world crap. LOVE your blog. LOVE your writing style. LOVE that GOD is soooo in this with you...and LOVE that He's not only with you, but is clearly shining through you. Finally - LOVE that you are transparent enough to share your questions and your fears. That kind of honesty and your kind of Jesus-braggin' is exactly what will attract the broken to our amazing HEALER!!!

LOVE and PRAYERS from NC,
Gwen

michelle said...

Praying my butt off for you still...(nobody has called me thin yet)! I know, I know...let it go!heehee! Love you and just keep asking and being transparent!We are here to pray you through this journey....Dan and Mihelle

Kristie said...

Elizabeth--I am definitely praying for you! My mom went through the exact same thing with Dr. Reid a year ago and is cancer free!!! I am praying you will have the same result. Please contact her if you have any questions about anything...she's a great inspiration as are you!! Her e-mail is: bechtel300@sbcglobal.net